There is a fullness to life—
A pulsating, undeniable fullness.
And yet,
A fullness denied from life itself.
And yes,
Almost unseen. Inapparent to the wandering, naked pair of eyes.
Between us, my silent wails.
Cold covers and soft stares.
The warmth of my right leg
Over my left.
The residue of last night’s lack.
& the residue of an even greater lack.
The weight of the lack—
Incomprehensible
It, too,
Inapparent.
Yet simultaneously,
Too apparent.
Then I yield.
But recent mornings
have seen
Warm cups of tea,
and a meaningful wandering.
a thankful look.
And recent mornings
have seen
her
out the paralysis, into life.
There is a fullness to life— a pulsating, undeniable fullness that
No one realizes
Is there.
Unseen. Inapparent to most.
Inapparent to the wandering, naked pair of eyes.
She is here.
Inapparent;
And yet—
It reveals itself,
To attentive, searching eyes. To the ears that try to tune to the whistle of the wind. To the grateful, excited heart.
It manifests itself in the complexities of love and art.
In the destruction and joys of friendships, relationships.
In slow, kind touches of dear hands.
In views of new places. In profound histories of erect structures. In sweeping declarations of sonnets. In iterations of the human condition.
And she is here.
She sees it is vast.
So vast it sweeps her.
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This is the 2nd piece in a collection of poems I hope to put out soon. Thank you for being here. Here is my attempt to be better— in perspective, in health, in words, in my connection to the world.
Each newsletter will now include On Loop! It will feature the week’s/month’s favorite reads, watches, podcasts, and music (aka where I get inspiration from)!
On Loop!
Inspiration in the Past Month (February)
Reading:
• Feb’s Favorite Read: Blueberries, Ellena Savage
• Currently Reading: Luster, Raven Leilani
• On deck: Beloved, Toni Morrison
• You should check out: Joan Didion’s new release Let Me Tell You What I Mean
Watching:
• Feb’s Favorite Watch: The Space in Between: Marina Abramovic in Brazil
• Feb’s Favorite Video: CatCreature’s Florida Video
• Favorite Discovery: Radhi Devlukia’s Channel
• You should check out: Her Love Boils Bathwater
Listening:
• Feb’s Favorite Song: Rain, Taeyeon
• Favorite Discovery: Freakin’ Out On The Interstate, Briston Maroney
• You should check out: Ardhito Pramano
Blogs/Reads on the Internet
• Favorite Blog: Tiny Driver
• Favorite Piece: Deaccessioning Empire, The New York Review
• You should check out: Must Reads of Philippine Literature
Podcasts
• Favorite Podcast: Vox Conversations
• You should check out: Roxane Gay’s Hear to Slay
I appreciate the on loop section sm 🥺🥺